I have been procrastinating on posting a blog for about a week and a half now. I keep getting ideas from God about things to write. But, I have a standard of writing that I would like to keep up before I post anything. I do not appreciate shoddy writing, things spouted off without appropriate sourcing, or even poor grammar & mechanics. Sound familiar. Working on my Master's thesis had to be one of the most painful experiences imaginable, and I even ENJOYED the subject matter. I am, what you might call, a perfectionist in sheep's clothing. I act laid back about a great many things, even though I expect my work to be better than average.
At the same time that I write this, I have about ten, half-started posts sitting in my drafts folder, waiting for me to get some time to write them. This post, however, is going out without the normal rigmarole that usually happens with my compositions. I have a feeling there are a great many people out there that can relate to this mentality, which is why I feel so strongly about getting this done, without the perfection. I am putting this through one draft, with minor corrections, and that is it.
As you can see, this is an issue I have struggled with for quite some time, and not just in my writing, but throughout many aspects of my life. I want my parenting to be perfect, my husbandry, my work, my friendship, my speaking, my studies, my ministry, and even my Christian walk. Being the sinful person that I am, the perfection will never happen. Deep down I understand the concept. It is just difficult to realize that and make it part of my daily thought process.
By no means am I promoting mediocrity. On the contrary, we should live for God in everything we do; "Do everything as if unto the Lord." Col 3:23-24 Our work should reflect a level of excellence that exhibits our love for God and how it pours through us out into the world. But, we must realize that in our human form, apart from heaven, nothing we do will ever meet an expectation of perfection. As imperfect creatures, we should realize that the power of Christ shows through our weaknesses (2 Cor 12:9). And, regardless of our failings we need to continue pressing ahead to accomplish the ministry and plans that God has laid out for us (Phil 3:12-14) for it is not through our holiness, but our surrendered lives that the Spirit of God can work in the lives of others.
Just remember that although we have done things which separate us from our heavenly Father, he has sent his Son to cover up those imperfections and bring us into communion with him (Isa 59:2; 53:6).
